Another day means another nightmare for me, because I knew
I'll screw up again; just like what happened yesterday. Regardless of the
circumstances, I just prepare the things that I need for another deadly day. I
need to get to school early because I have to print some works for World
Literature. I took my bath as fast as possible that I imagine myself running
like a cheetah.
I hope Miss Ceres
haven't entered the room yet because it's already 8:40 on the clock. Quickly, I
sprint up and down until I finished printing the output to be submitted to Miss
Ceres. Fortunately, I made it just in time. I rapidly put my costumes on, a red
skinny pants, a white long-sleeve polo shirt and a lighting Christmas hat, we
head to the auditorium and now it's starting to occur again......
As I was walking my
way to a seat, this feeling that I always feel whenever I participate in a
competition; it was going too fast, very fast, it wants to make me explode. It
was my pumping heart. There's nothing new about it, so I tried to pacify the
feeling by getting out from the auditorium to clear things out in order for me
to stay cool and calm.
I fixed my hair and
I went in to the auditorium again. Somehow, it helped reducing the tension in
me with a repeated times of using the restroom. The contest was started by sir
Deeno as the host. We sang the National Anthem and started watching the
contestants be killed by the reactions of the crowd due to their stammering
speeches with a little diversity in their moves.
Now it is our turn
to be slauthered on stage. They showed our AVP first, the AVP is a compilation
of the times we prepared for the competition; good thing Pam didn't include
more scenes of my face because I look awful without a reason. We gather
ourselves to our respective areas, but I feel something strange.
We are now ready
but the lights are still off, uh oh, technical difficulty. The beginning is
such a failure unlike the times we practiced. There goes my part; I said to
myself, "This is the time to give all that you've got". My part
arrives and I bring it all out. I move with grace and energy, raising it at its
fullest. "Extend here" and "Extend there", "Move over
here" and "Move over there", "Speak here" and
"Speak there". I do the same things until it's now over.
We went to our
seats and it was occurring again. My heart was beating fast as they announce
the winners for the Speech competition; which I somehow hate after my failure
to make it to the finals, Ignite speech; which I also hate because I also
failed to be chosen as the ignite speaker but as I realize how hassle it was,
I'm somehow thankful at least every failure feels like a relief. And now, they
announced who won the 2nd runner-up, I was surprised that AC-151 got it, at
first I thought they'll be like first place or champion because they did well
compared to us. Second, they announced the 1st runner-up, the MA-151 well I
never thought of that because I didn't watch their performance entirely thinking
a lot of things. Lastly, the champion, this feeling occurred more and has
gotten worst.
I looked at Kelly
who was sitting beside me, we comfort each other but I'm the one who feels
worse than her. I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack anytime because of
my fast heart beat rate. Then the champion was.......
I hate the
announcer because they're making us excited at the same time deficiently making
us wait and listen. It is Tourism Management.....
I stand quickly
raising my two hands in the air with the fingers clenched. I wasn't able to
hold my happiness that time, I released all of it. It was unexplainable, it's a
bad sign though that signifies I'm about to get weak again just like before. I
said to myself, "I won't be that person again."
Everything was
unexpected. We head up to the stage and I barbarically jumped over to get onto
the stage first, I'm so ashamed of myself because I brag like I'm the only
cause of our victory. I stepped back and join the others as we form a line
holding our trophy as a champion. We took photos, shake hands with the teachers
and we're done...congratulations.......but that time I realized that it's our
last day.....how will I going to end this day without even crying.............I
guess I'm now attached to these people that I can say "I'll miss them soon"........that's
why I choose to move away from everybody and observed them from one side and
they are very happy with their smiles like there's still tomorrow to see each
other again.
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